Thursday, October 18, 2012

Life happens

Welcomed, surprising, unpleasant, confronting, joyous.

It seems life has an endless supply of events, circumstances and occurrences to keep us on our toes. I don't subscribe to either theory that life is either down to fate or chance. But one thing I've seen to be consistent over my 26 years is that these events, circumstances and occurrences, whether good or bad, always come in 3's.

For the first time in a little while, the universe decided to throw me a bone after a bit of a good-news drought with a nice three-tiered package of awesome.

And whilst I am happy to bask in my current state of luck/fate, I cannot turn my attention away from the fact that some of those I care about have been hit with a much less awesome three-tiered round of events, circumstances and occurrences.

My dad once said that his smile depended on the smile of my sister and I. The same can be said for me with my family and friends. It's hard to enjoy good fortune, whether by luck or fate, when those around you are struggling to find two good pieces of news to rub together.

At the end of the day, I just accept that 'Life happens'. You can't win all the time. Maybe the earth would tilt off it's axis if life was consistently chipper and lucky. Hard, unpleasant and challenging times lie ahead of me for sure and time will tell what they are in due course. But until then all we can do is enjoy the wins when we have them, listen and assist others who are short of a win and know that when it's your time to lose out, better times will follow soon enough.

Life happens. No controlling what's thrown your way, just how we choose to handle ourselves when it happens.

Yours in current gladness and appreciation,
Kat xx

Friends who play Cupid

    The road to hell is paved with good intentions, or so they say.

Friends who play cupid, whilst their intentions are thoughtful, what they fail to see is that if it doesn't work out, or ends up being one-sided, it just creates one hell of a hot mess for everyone to deal with.

If two people like each other, it will happen on it's own. However 'encouraging' two people together will most likely end in people just being put in an awkward situation. And no one wants that at a Sunday BBQ.

Avoid the awkward. Don't set up your friends. 

Wednesday, October 17, 2012

Destination: Disappointment

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Who hasn't been here before? The shittiest valley of them all.

I rarely care to complain about life, because I am all to aware of how many fantastic people and times are in it. But sometimes, against all better judgements, you get your hopes up and when things don't work out, you come crashing down into Disappointment Valley. 

Luckily* you have Cold Reality and Broken Pride to cushion the fall.

The recent round of let downs has come unexpectedly and sans explanation. And being left with the outcome of dashed hopes is as bitter to swallow as it always has been. But trying to make sense of the senseless is about as useful as trying to unscramble an egg. So I don't dwell, cry or lay awake at night trying to pick the point where this journey took such an unexpected detour to Disappointment Valley via Brain-Breaking Point. So in lieu of anger, frustration or hurt, what is left but disappointment? 

I have a formula for disappointment:
All we can do is make peace with reality, be grateful for the lessons learned and keep on walking. 

The weight of disappointment never gets lighter, but you do learn how to deal with it better with knowledge and strengths gained from past experiences. 

No visit to Disappointment Valley is permanent. Some stays are longer than others, but I am quietly confident that this trip will be a short-lived one. So in the interim, I'll wear this sigh-face with the knowledge that I'll be better placed for the next bump in the road, whatever it may be. 

Often the best of destinations are the ones you have to first endure a bumpy ride to get to. So remember not to let temporary disappointments rattle your cage too much.

Yours in enduring chipperness,
Kat xx

Wednesday, September 12, 2012

Why we should always ask – R U OK?

I remember being told some horrible news when I was about 12 years old. A sweet, caring and beautiful older lady named Helen who lived down the street from my dad had passed away in what I can only describe as a truly horrific and incomprehensible way. I only saw her once a week, but she was always pleased to see us, would offer my sister & I sweets & always tell my dad what lovely girls he had.

At the time, she was simply a lovely lady whom I knew very little about, that everyone in the neighbourhood thought highly of. One day we picked her flowers from the park & dropped them off on our way home. This little, admittedly small-thought gesture I was later told, was talked about for a week.

This sweet and loving woman never spoke ill of anything & always had a beautiful smile on display. You’d never had guessed the traumatic and heartbreaking reality she faced on a daily basis at the hands of her abusive and putrid husband who I will hate until the day I die.

She once said that life held much beauty even in the face of adversities. She never complained or spoke in want of anything. She sung praises of those around her and when asked how she was going, she would always reply with “all the better for having seen you”.

Helen took her own life in April 1998 in such a way that still brings me to tears 14 years later and gave a horrible insight to the extent of her suffering.

The shock felt like being hit by a freight train at a million miles an hour & given the nature of the situation, it wasn’t until I was a bit older that dad told me the story in its entirety. To this day, I am still amazed that she was able to smile and be as beautiful of a person as she was and have no one ever guess what horror was going on behind closed doors.

I wholeheartedly believe that if someone had of known the extent of her hardship, that someone would have been able to help her & she would still be here today.

Even if you don’t suspect that anything may be wrong, start the conversation. Ask someone if they are OK. Regrettably, today is a day that many in that neighbourhood are reminded of the conversation they wished they’d started with Helen.

Visit: and start a conversation that could change a life.

Tuesday, May 15, 2012

Sleep deprivation & databases - A tale of woe.

Sweet. Merciful. Christ.
I didn't know it was possible to feel like this & still manage to function (albeit in zombie mode).

My wonderful out-of-towners were in-towners for a brief period, so a night in at my friend's place turned into a 'two-hours-of-sleep-if-you-were-lucky-but-you-probably-weren't-cause-lady-be-looking-like-a-hot-mess' night coupled with a bangin' headache thanks to Grey Goose vodka, many Strongbows & some cheap bubbles.

Lift into the city was greatly appreciated. Even if it meant we were out of the house by 6am and I was at work at 7-fuggen-30.

I'm not in the correct mind space to elaborate right now, but two things I have learnt this morning are:

1) When you're this tired, you are fresh out of shits to give if there's a hair in your coffee. Seriously. Don't care. Just make me feel alive please.

2) When you're this tired, words don't look like words. Especially words relating to a CRM database which on a good day - is still the mother of all arse pain. "Define the categories using the run-time filters in the corresponding modules for the definable filters"... pretty sure that's not even English right now. GTFO, database 'report wizard', you horrible bastard.

Brain can't figure out how to sign this one off right now.

Kat xx

Monday, May 14, 2012

Whatever happened to Jewel?

"Dreams last for so long, even after you're gone, I know you love me and soon you will see, you were meant for me... and I was meant for you"

- Yeah, that Jewel. Whatever happened to her?

Remember all her thought provoking clips and emotive lyrics? Remember the album 'Spirit'? With all those beautiful songs like 'Hands'?

Yeah, they were good.

And then she came out with that song 'Intuition'... that make-me-puke kind of pop music completely void of true substance. A song that I think was trying to poke fun at the fame game (kind of) but really failed to hit the mark. I think the only benefit she would have seen from that monstrosity would have been the big fat pay cheque from shaving company Gillette when they used that song in their commercial for their 'intuition' lady razors.

Anyway since then she's completely fallen off my radar. Has she done anything lately?

The fact that she was once so wholesome and made beautiful music, then sold out and made a horrible pop album and now seems to have disappeared off the face of the planet is just upsetting.

The same goes for Nelly Furtado. First soulful & lovely single, "I'm like a bird" - then had a kid, then came the album "Loose" with the hit single being "Promiscuous Girl"... I can't help but feel her career is working in reverse. She seems to have disappeared too.


Sunday, May 13, 2012

Two years

As if by some happy little mistake, the universe reminded me that today marks 2 years since I went through a pretty rough time in my life.

Looking back now, two years might as well be 20. It feels so long ago & I'm so far detached from who I was 730 days ago that it doesn't even feel like that person was me.

I'm a firm believer that everything happens for a greater reason. That sometimes you need to go to hell & back so that you can really appreciate a slice of heaven when it comes your way.

Whilst I'm certainly grateful for all the lessons learned, I wish I could take a photo of my life today that I could send back to that girl I was 2 years ago today. If nothing else, she needed to know that she would be OK, even though it felt like the end of the world.

It breaks my heart to remember that girl, and it's so strange to know that she was me. But on the flip side, I am proud of the personal triumphs and growth I've gone through from that time up to today. Hindsight truly is a miraculous thing and I cannot imagine I'd be half the person I am today if it hadn't have been for my past heartaches.

My life is not perfect, but for every part that is "missing" or remains to be fulfilled, there are so many other beautiful parts. Namely, the realisation of my own worth. The strength of those relationships that pulled me through and the sense of self you gain when you are forced to rebuild your life from the ground up.

Onwards & upwards x 2 years.

Having lost & having found more than you knew was possible.

I cannot think of a better reason for this smile I have whilst I complete this entry :)

Yours in love with life,
Kat xx

Monday, January 2, 2012

A tribute to Kristian Anderson

I remember the first time I saw this clip back in 2010 and I cried like a baby.

This clip went viral and even made it on the Oprah Winfrey show.

For those who have never seen this clip, the star is Kristian Anderson, an Australian man who was diagnosed in 2009 with terminal bowel cancer. The clip is a birthday/thank you to his wife Rachel for her support during his diagnosis and treatment.

Kristian wrangled up Hugh Jackman (thanks to the efforts of Triple M radio) and the Prime Minister of New Zealand (Rachel is a kiwi) to make cameo appearances in the clip.

This clip is truly beautiful and I cry every time I see it. It serves as a beautiful reminder of the enduring nature of true love and commitment. After a rollercoaster 24 months, some girlfriends & I had lost faith in the idea of everlasting love or genuine men. I'm happy to say that this clip restores the faith ten fold & for that, this gorgeous tribute to a supportive wife will forever hold a top 5 place in my YouTube heart.

My heart broke this morning on my way to work, when I read that Kristian passed away yesterday (02/01/12).

It is a rare thing, to be so moved by a stranger. I suppose this is the beauty of the online world, whilst it can share sadness, anger and ugliness, it too can bring beauty, restored faith & hope to those you share with.

So this is my tribute, however small, to Kristian Anderson and his wife Rachel & their two boys. Thank you for casting this ray of sunshine on the online world and indeed in the hearts of many. You may have passed on to a better place, but you have forever left an incredibly beautiful mark on the world.

Yours in renewed hope,
Kat xx